Give it a place in Your head and heart. You won't get an answer. That's why they call it hope, or faith. when I was 17 I listened to a Neil Young album called Harvest. .Just lost my mom. Later, when my aunts and nieces and sister died. It made me think that whatever happens, you can only do Your best. And death is beyond human control. I still play that album to remember that death is out of our control, But life is not. I hope You remember that. yes, it is my effort of support. It's horrible. But it's the best I could do.
Let me in God the problem is that we believe that we are more important than an ant or even a virus. This is an ingeniously illusion proportionate to the cosmos. resurrection? But what is't?. Certainly something else. Already here now like a seed , despite the dark colors. A litle patch of blue sky.